I cried & cried, but you still kept going. I prayed to god that you wouldn't no more. I was daddy's girl, my knight and shinning armor, who tried to harm himself & break that armor. You were the man in my life that I truly trusted, but I cried & I cried because you wouldn't stop cutting.
We tried time and time again to bring life into your soul, but once your father was gone, so was my knight and shinning armor...
You tried to kill yourself over and over again, I prayed to god just let him get it over with, one of these times he will succeed, as I cried and begged but you ignored our plea...
Just take him now, because he is slowly killing me & I cried and I cried even more, because the man in my eyes couldn't hear our screaming!!
DADDY!! DADDY!! PLEASE STOP NOW!!! I PROMISE I'LL BE BETTER JUST PUT THE KNIFE DOWN....
Blood on his chest all over the place, weekend after weekend there was a possible arrest...but I cried & I cried & I cried a lot, cops at the door, please don't take him!! It's the liquor, just ignore the mess, he will be fine tomorrow...
My precious dad who I loved and adored, a daddy's girl that is who I was, broke my heart at the age of 8, says go get daddy the gasoline can!! BUT WHY?!?!? JUST GO GET IT & POUR IT AROUND ME!! I CRIED AND SAID NO, IF YOU WANT TO DIE I'M NOT GOING TO HELP YOU GO!!!
As the years passed on & he got older he had a stroke & I was pregnant with my first daughter, so again I am crying & praying some more, that the man in my eyes gets to live a lot longer...
No more drinking, no more cutting! Life & Reality entered his body, grandchildren came changed his whole game, gave him a reason to live, so now I cry & I cry because I am thankful for the man above knew he would be an amazing man, once life was brought back to thee...living a life of someone who always wanted to die, gave me the will and strength to always want to survive!!
Now I find my dad at 62 struggling daily & now he prays for his baby girl...
Instead of me in the hospital watching the doctors with him, he has to witness my head that was bashed in...he thinks he is taking me home, but little did we know I was going to prison...So now my knight and shinning armor is crying for his baby girl. They got her locked up & he would do anything for her...phone calls all week to get me released & waited for hours just to watch me leave...
So at the age of 33 I'm still a daddy's girl, would give my life just so he wouldn't have to leave <3
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